Testimony

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    On being out, and the direction of the MAP community.

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    Katie Cruz

    This was part of a conversation I had with a fellow MAP on  May 24, 2023. So to be an out MAP, ideally, a lot of things have to line up. You have to make sure you’re safe – safe from vigilante violence, safe in your relationships, and safe in your financial wellbeing. For me,…

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    The Keys to Self-Acceptance

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    Katie Cruz

    This piece was originally published Mar 24, 2023. I was recently asked how I was able to accept myself as a minor-attracted person. It was only after I realized: I didn’t choose this orientation. An unchosen orientation doesn’t make one evil. I’m comfortable with my feelings. I know that I have no bad intentions and…

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    Letting Ourselves Be Vulnerable

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    Katie Cruz

    This piece was originally written on Jan 5, 2023. I had the pleasure of meeting a fellow MAP through video chat yesterday. This person is someone I’ve talked with for a few years online. I’ve always gotten good vibes from them, and we’ve become rather close recently. It was a fun chat and it was…

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    This is My Ministry

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    Katie Cruz

    This piece was originally written on Jan 2, 2023. I joined the MAP community as a young, naive, teen. I was hopelessly in love with little girls and the prospect of a lifetime of loneliness seemed inevitable and devastating. I had radical ideas of legalizing relationships between adults and tween girls and looked for ways…

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    Coming to terms

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    Katie Cruz

    This piece was originally written on Oct 22, 2021, in reply to a MAP who was just coming to terms with their orientation. A lot of MAPs were in denial about their orientation, and some were antis. Before I accepted myself, I thought all pedophiles were bad. I said all sorts of anti-pedophile stuff, almost…

  • My experience at the 2018 B4U-ACT Symposium

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    Katie Cruz

    This piece was originally posted to the Visions of Alice forum on Sep 24, 2018. This past weekend, I traveled to Baltimore, Maryland, United States, to participate in the B4U-ACT 2018 Symposium: Expanding Focus. This was my first time attending such an event, and my first time meeting other self-proclaimed MAPs. Upon arriving at the…